:'(

i've just realized that i had brought him more and more troubles,
:'(
asking him to take me out,
asking him to have satnite again and again,
asking him not to make me jealous all the times,
i kept 'asking' to him,
while in return,
what did i give to him? nothing.
what did i do to make him happy? nothing.
what did i do to make him stronger? nothing.


gosh,
this reality makes me sad,
i couldn't give anything good to him,


i couldn't do anything good to him,


i kept saying 'i love u' to him, but i didn't give him happiness nor peace...


i feel so sorry,
i feel so guilty,


but really,
all i wanna do is to make him happy,
all i wanna see is him smiling n sharing laughter to the world,


let me do my best not to be a burden for him anymore, :'(
i just love him so much,

only hope

if only happiness ever really exists, being with you is the best happiness for me.

i have finally found a hope in my life, in u...

i know this path will not be so easy,

there might be pain, plain, and rain..

but as long as i know that u still hold my hand,

i will never lose my faith in u,

i will never hold anyone's hand...

i know there will be jealousity, selfishness, anger and even tears...

but as long as i know u share it with me, only with me,

i will never let u down..

because u are my only hope,

                                                                    

                                                                    "Only Hope"

[Written by Switchfoot]

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

(taken from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/mandymoore/onlyhope.html  )